Well there you go
Today hasn't been the best of days to say the least. I've felt like shit all day and I had to work this morning. Now were over at jasons because it's his birthday weekend. Come to find out aparantly John thinks I tell him I love him too much. But if I don't say it I'll never hear it. So I guess I'm just going to be content with never hearing it cause I'm sure as hell not saying it to him anymore. I'm completely convinced now that he doesn't feel as strongly about me as I do about him. And I'm beginning to wonder if he really loves me at all. I always knew he would break my heart. It was just a matter of time. I'm supposed to stay with him this weekend but now I'm not sure if I want to. I'm starting to think that he's taking me for granted. He needs to be reminded what it's like not to have me around. I have too much other shit to worry about right now to be dealing with bullshit. I mean for crying out loud I've got school and everything else and work and a family and all that kinda whatnot I'm 21 years old and I shouldn't be crying over some stupid boy. Why does this shit always happen to me? I guess I am a Cinderella messup after all. Well I'm off to eat some Mickey d's and drink the night away. Then it's off to work againnjn the morning