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[im_a_seal16]

im quite confused at the moment.
i don't know what im supposed to do.
nor do i want to know.
because whatever it is it's probably
opposite of what i want.
i never want to be that person
that people dont want to be with
or whatever
but im not going to let anything
that you say stop me.
not that anything is happening anyway...
but
i want everything to work out
and if it doesnt
im willing to bust my ass to fix it
so it does.

i feel like something big
and mildly unexpected
is about to happen.
that excites me.
iv'e been ready for something
for a long time.

and also

iv'e realized that simply wanting
doesn't do a goddamn thing.
so i must find a way
to get the things that i want.