its over
Im not really sure i like who i am, but what ever i am im 50/50 about
it. Im happy because i feel happeir, and the downside is sometiems
having to wear a fake smile. Pretty soon i wont have to wear a fake
smile, if things clear up a bit. Im progressing becoming happier even
tho i am truely going down hill. I wear a real smile most of the time
and i truely am happy, no fakes. Alota thinkin on death, may sound
creapy, but alota people ask me why i do the stuff i do. Simply put...
No one else does it, its not common, and i accept death its
ineveitable. some may say im putin out a welcome mat for it, maybe so,
but im different from all of you for some of the stuff i do. i am
unique very. i dont always fit in but i make a short effort then redeem
my loss by doing a stunt tht gives me an addrenaline high, which i
love. I love it when my heart pounds, i hope that one day instead of
doing "death defying stunts" i can feel my heart beat agaisnt another.
Have my heart beat bc of emotions i feel. Emptyness is what ocuppys
this void in my life. as much as youve been told, your really not
alone. Ill b here for anyone, ou kno where to find me and ill try to do
my best to help, even tho it sometimes seems like im not doing anything
to help. I try to, sumtin alot of kids cant say. Well in the end, when
im at the feet of my succsesor, i can give them the finger and said i
tried. im here...