i spoke to all my molecules and they were divided

[im_a_liar]

I finished the new Harry Potter book. It was pretty good. Now I'm onto Valley of the Dolls that I purchased for $3 at Goodwill.

Tim's birthday is this Wednesday. Apparently there is a party at his place. I need to find a way to look older because I seriously look so young it kind of pisses me off sometimes.

I've been frustrated with myself and life quite a bit lately. I just find myself fed up with just about everything. Nothing makes sense and most everything has lost purpose. There were times where I seemed much worse off than I am now but at least I still felt like I had a space to my own and things seemed to make sense. Lately it just appears that things are occurring and they all mean nothing and I'm left behind. I want things to move and I want to move along with them. I don't even know if any of this makes sense but I just don't feel right with things.

Haha, I just remembered Neil assured me he wanted to remain friends after we broke up but he has yet to call me once. Whatever. He was starting to drain me of every ounce of happiness I had.

I just feel really shitty now. I wish I knew why.