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alright, i lied. The built up frustration needs to come out and its going to do so in the form of writing and since no one reads this to begin with, im more or less writing to myself. Im having a hard time understanding people lately. Well, i have always had a hard time understanding people but the past few days have been a mind fuck of wondering why people do the things they do. Moreso, why people give the excuses for the things they do.
Ive come to the conclusion a while ago that there are two types of people. the first being the kind that blatantly can not be trusted or relied upon. I try not to associate with these types but on occasion i cant help it. The second isnt as much the kind that can be trusted, but the kind that is predictable in their actions to where you can gauge when/if they will be deceptive or trustworthy. This system has done me well for quite some time but lately the second type has been graying into the first and im left with no solid foundation.
So the part that mostly annoys me is that i seem to be losing people to confide in. I keep worrying about disappointing others when in fact they disappoint me just as easily if not more so. Maybe i set too high a standard on people. So where does that leave me? I can further alienate myself from others so i dont have to deal with so much of the stupidity but then ill be lieing to myself because in the end i need and strive for communication with others. Its the need to find someone to wordplay with that keeps me amused when dealing with people.
...If you willingly choose to slip though the filter like everyone else, who am i to stop you?
Ive come to the conclusion a while ago that there are two types of people. the first being the kind that blatantly can not be trusted or relied upon. I try not to associate with these types but on occasion i cant help it. The second isnt as much the kind that can be trusted, but the kind that is predictable in their actions to where you can gauge when/if they will be deceptive or trustworthy. This system has done me well for quite some time but lately the second type has been graying into the first and im left with no solid foundation.
So the part that mostly annoys me is that i seem to be losing people to confide in. I keep worrying about disappointing others when in fact they disappoint me just as easily if not more so. Maybe i set too high a standard on people. So where does that leave me? I can further alienate myself from others so i dont have to deal with so much of the stupidity but then ill be lieing to myself because in the end i need and strive for communication with others. Its the need to find someone to wordplay with that keeps me amused when dealing with people.
...If you willingly choose to slip though the filter like everyone else, who am i to stop you?