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[im_a_hp_hick]

I'm sitting upnorth at my dad's house. Just finished watching The Sopranos. For some reason I feel the need to write my thoughts. Okay, so at this point in my life I'm considering some serious changes. I'm done with this semester at OCC finally and I'm going to quit my job at the vet hospital very soon. I'm considering.. moving upnorth. At my house I have to pay rent, here I do not. At my house my mom and Tim don't help me with college tuition. Upnoth my dad said he'd pay for my to go to Kirtland Community College. It looks like a good school to me. There aren't very many things keeping my downstate. I feel as though all of "friends" just got too busy with their lives and don't bother communicating with me anymore. Or maybe it's the other way around.. I've been too busy up at work, and going to school.. I don't know. The situation is so fucked up. I'm scared to leave home, yet I have so much more opprotunity up here.. and I still wonder. Who the fuck's gonna care if I leave? I know it's not that far away. 174 miles, 2.5 hours. But still. I know I'd miss my little bro most of all. He's my best friend and brother. I'd also miss the Loves a lot. They're the only people friend friends that I think might give 2 shits if I leave.

So where does all this leave me? Nowhere right now. I'm still confused, scared, excited, and nervous all at the same time. Life's moving along and I better catch a ride. I don't wanna be sitting on the side of the road while everyone I know is moving 55 mph northbound, ya know?

So with all that said, what do you all think? I know there is only a select group of people that still read this old LJ of mine. Give me some input. It might just help me out a little bit.