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I've noticed that i feel gui;ty when I want to take a nap. Like it is strictly forbidden. Then i sleep with one eye open. I'm afraid to waste a minute cause I have to work on my portfolio and reading all these books. It's consuming my summer, this not procrastinating thing. I feel drained and lazy and tired. At least my mind is clear. I can make sense of things now.I just don't like that I'm not enjoying all this free time I have to work on things. I feel I am wasting it.I don't know, I just dont want to feel nervous
hopefully it's just the heat
hopefully it's just the heat