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I have the fucking touch of death.
Every goddamn animal I have seems to want to die.
My relationship is failing but no one has the guts to tell me.
I hate the entire universe but I can't do anything about it.
I'm a total hypocrite.
I just want to be alone, I don't want any "love".
Leave me alone, abandon me please, I want justification.
I want to see things kill other things.
I want to beat the living shit out of someone, make them bleed.
I want Tyler Durden to come and bloody me up and make me feel something other than this constant screening process I put myself through.
I want to cause a scene and make a mess and scream in the middle of the hallway at school.
I am not emo.
I am not anything at all anymore.
I have lost any identity I ever had and I am reduced to this complaining, straight-faced idiot with four different doctor's appointments in the next three weeks.
I'm a goddamn trainwreck and it's all in my head.
I want him to make friends with other girls.
I want him to take them to the movies, I want them to fall in love with him. I want them to take him away from me.
I don't deserve it, he's too good for me, so someone else should have him.
Someone who doesn't pity themselves so much.
Someone who doesn't worry about things that don't need to be worried about.
Someone who doesn't bitch about everything all the time.
Someone who isn't me.
And all I want to do is sleep.
Every goddamn animal I have seems to want to die.
My relationship is failing but no one has the guts to tell me.
I hate the entire universe but I can't do anything about it.
I'm a total hypocrite.
I just want to be alone, I don't want any "love".
Leave me alone, abandon me please, I want justification.
I want to see things kill other things.
I want to beat the living shit out of someone, make them bleed.
I want Tyler Durden to come and bloody me up and make me feel something other than this constant screening process I put myself through.
I want to cause a scene and make a mess and scream in the middle of the hallway at school.
I am not emo.
I am not anything at all anymore.
I have lost any identity I ever had and I am reduced to this complaining, straight-faced idiot with four different doctor's appointments in the next three weeks.
I'm a goddamn trainwreck and it's all in my head.
I want him to make friends with other girls.
I want him to take them to the movies, I want them to fall in love with him. I want them to take him away from me.
I don't deserve it, he's too good for me, so someone else should have him.
Someone who doesn't pity themselves so much.
Someone who doesn't worry about things that don't need to be worried about.
Someone who doesn't bitch about everything all the time.
Someone who isn't me.
And all I want to do is sleep.