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so. i have come to the conclusion that my parents...suck. they seriously don't appreciate or notice any of the positive things that i do but they can ALWAYS point out the things that i do wrong. they always complain about me going out and hanging out with friends but its not like im gonna do anything interesting at home. like last night, i went and saw madagascar with leigh stoots carden and jaime. then we went to purple cow afterwards. so we are at purple cow and they were like lets go play mini golf. so i had to call my mom because she said i had to be home at 1030 and we would never be home by then if we went to play. so i was like hey can i come home a little later because we wanna go play mini golf. and she was like NO be home at 1030 like i told you. so i come home and she just decides to bitch me out for a while. she's a jerk. and she is sick today. so i have been doing everything around the house for her. then i had to do yardwork and then my regular chores. and so im taking a break and she is like i want all of your chores done before you leave. im not taking you until you are done. and i was like what do you think i have been doing for the past 2 hours? ive been doing my chores mom. and she was like whatever amanda you need to get off that damn computer before i throw it away. next time she is sick im not doing crap for her. grrknrwre. unappreciative people really make me angry. another thing that pisses me off the most about them is that i have honestly worked my butt off this year. i mean with school and then i have gotten more involved with church and sca and sports and stuff. and im not bragging or anything but i really really have tried. my parents have not ONCE said they are proud of me. my friends say it to me. especially brittany (thank you) but my parents never say anything about how hard i have been trying. they just complain about having to pick me up when i had practice and picking me up after meetings. its crappy. and bothers me.

i feel kinda bad lately. i feel like i am kind of mean to the people around me. that i don't treat them like i should. i mean i pre-judge people so easily and i say things about people that i shouldn't. and i feel like i havent been that great to my friends lately either and that i could be better to them.i feel like i could listen to them a lot more and that i am just not very nice. i don't know what is up. i'm sorry everyone.

thanks for listening.
<3 amanda