alright. so i pretty much had a... i don' t know the word. but yeah. uhm. so my day was wicked boring. i was wicked tempted to fall asleep in history, but i didn't. so uhm. my day was wicked boring actually. wow, i suck. haha. but anyways. i think i gained some knowledge recently, that i would like to share with anyone who cares to read this. actually, it's a little bit. key word, little. of what i wrote in my journal today. so you should feel HIGHLY privledged. becuase it is after all, my journal. alright. so it might confuse some people, but feel free to read. &&have a FANTASTIC day.
so this morning. I was like baffled at a statement Mr. Crockford made. This is the general concept: humans have a defense mecanism. one that allows us to feel pain at a given time, remember the feeling of pain, but makes us unable to remember the feelings of pain itself. so to me, that makes a shitload of sense. becuase you can't actually remember a feeling. you know? it's weird if you think about it. so people's problems, are that the majority of them react based on feelings &&emotions. although feelings &&emotions are choosen by your brain, it's you who makes the decisions. people react on their feelings because they believe they have thought the feelings through. when in reality it's sort of on an autopilot. your brain sends out chemicals that tell you to feel mad, hurt, upset, and everything in between. but they don't realice they have the choice to take control of their own feelings, take your brain off autopilot so to sepak. think about the feeling your brain directs you to have, than change it. losing control does not exist. how do you always have control over your feelings is simple. simplicity doesn't exist either. the base of your thoughts may be simple, but when you think about what you feel. if it's important, it always becomes complex. your brain suggest a feeling, than you think about it &&decide if you want to accept or deny it. some people can grasp the concept of this, yet they can't sort out what feelings are which. this hurts you much more than it does help you. if you're going to use your feelings like this, you have to make sure you can figure out the feelings themselves before you try to sort them out. this is the flaw in the concept. becuase sometimes you let go of a feeling that you should have kept. a feeling that deep down you really wanted. but had too much control. and when you lose just a tad bit, you might get scarred. and just let go of it completely. why bother right? well everything has a flaw. and that's the one. lose something you never really had. becuase you never really allowed yourself to. it's a pity, really. so that's basically it. good bye.. i guess...