we're making out inside crashed cars.
alright. so i kind of need to vent. but i will save that for my real journal. but yeah. i will sum it up. in my opinion, you can't be "in love" or "love" someone if they don't "love" you back. i think that's how it's supposed to work. the fact she's still saying "i love you" to you and such, just frustrates me beyond belief. i know you're not the type of guy that would do something like say it back. but i don't want to lose you in any way, shape, or form. and will do anything to keep that from happening. she is trying to come between us. and that is a deffinite no-no. especially when it comes to ames, her temper, &&a disliked chick. so i pretty much want to rip into her so hard. does she not realize you have a girlfriend? just curious. becuase i'll be glad to let her know myself. because you're amazing, &&you're mine. end of story. so i suggest she backs the hell off. or she's going to get pumbled by me. so annnnyways, that's besides the point. although i do feel slightly better. i just got home from the [YAY] fundraiser at the track. i looove stale beer, &&such healthy food that people love to leave behind just for us. haha. well i would way rather do that than the parking lots. that is what sucks. so yeah. on sunday i guess we have to do it again. but we're just screening, so that shouldn't be too bad at all. besides the fact we have to be there at quarter past four. oh baby, so much fun. i totally just updated like twice in one day. i think i'll delete the other entry. becuase this one has at least slightly more signifigance. so yeah. that's my story. &&now i'm bored, i so stole this from alexis. here is me entertaining myself.
edit:
x your confessions, i'm so putting in comments. hell with just "x's."
I am bisexual [always accused of it.]
I am homosexual [ ]
I've run away from home [attempted to.]
I listen to political music. [ ]
I collect comic books. [ ]
I shut others out when I'm sad [guilty.]
I open up to others easily [usually only when i know they care. which is rarely.]
I am keeping a secret from the world [possibly, just don't know what.]
I watch the news [sometimes, i love it.]
I own over five rap CDs [rather be shot.]
I own something from Hot Topic [who doesn't.]
I love Disney movies [xx's up the wahoo. love 'em.]
I am a sucker for hair/eyes [let's make that sweet talker.]
I don't kill bugs [only when they surprise &&scare me]
I curse regularly. [mmmeh. x.]
I have "x"s in my screen name. [ ]
I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation [haha. uhm. once. only, i swear.]
I love Spam (as the food) [spanish ham. spam?]
I bake well [i love cooking. i think i'm pretty good at it.]
I would wear pajamas to school. [i used to own the school-wearing-pajama style. bah.]
I own something from Abercrombie [x. stereotypes.]
I have a job [ ]
I love Martha Stewart. [ ]
I am in love/like with someone. [f f fffalling. it's scary stuff.]
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS [ ]
I am self conscious. [uhm. x, x, &&another X.]
I like to laugh. [i like it when he makes me laugh becuase i know i'm not faking it.]
I smoke a pack a day. [ ]
I loved "Go Ask Alice".[ ]
I have cough drops when I'm not sick. [ ]
I can't swallow pills. [ ]
I have many scars Inside and out. [bah. x.]
I've been out of this state [i love travelling!]
I believe in ghosts. [most deffinitly. i do live next to a graveyard.]
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room [weird, i had to kill one last night for that.]
I am really ticklish [not at all.]
I love chocolate. [sometimes.]
I bite my nails [ ]
I am comfortable with being me. [not yet.]
I play computer games/video games when I'm bored [orginal nintendo. obviously.]
Gotten lost in the city [atlantic city.]
Saw a shooting star. [x.]
I had a serious Surgery. [broken wrist?]
Gone out in public in your pajamas [it's like my past time.]
I have kissed a stranger. [ ]
Hugged a stranger. [ ]
been in a fist fight with the same sex. [no, but i'd totally love to.]
Been arrested/ police custody [eehh, x.]
Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose [no, but i want to try it sometime soon.]
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator [YES. and got stuck in it with Lex &&Kurtz.]
Made out in an elevator [hmm. i'd like to do that.]
Swore at your parents. [boring x.]
Kicked a guy where it hurts. [ ]
Been sky diving... [too risky. maybe when i'm married.]
Been bungee jumping. [same.]
Broken a bone. [x.]
Played spin the bottle. [ ]
Gotten stitches [ ]
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [ ]
Bitten someone. [it's fun. gently of course.]
Been to Niagara Falls. [ ]
Gotten the chicken pox. [you'd hope so.]
Crashed into a car [strangely i've always wanted to be in a car crash.]
Been to Japan [no, but it's like my goal in life to visit there.]
Ridden in a taxi. [duuh. x.]
Shoplifted. [x. x. x.]
Been fired. [ ]
had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [psh. stupid x.]
Stole something from your job. [ ]
Gone on a blind date. [ ]
Had a crush on a teacher/coach [ ]
Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. [ ]
Been to Europe. [someday.]
Slept with a co-worker. [co-schooler?]
Been married [ ]
Gotten divorced. [don't believe in divorce.]
Saw someone/something dying. [aw. x.]
Driven over 400 miles in one day. [bottom of CT.]
Been to Canada. [ ]
Been on a plane. [xxxers.]
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [haha. creepy movie.]
Thrown up in a bar. [ ]
Eaten Sushi. [always wanted to try it.]
Been snowboarding. [ ]
Been skiing. [when i was like five.]
Been ice skating. [used to figure skate.]
Met someone in person from the internet [uhm. x.]
Been to a motocross show. [no, but'd totally love to.]
Going to or have gone to college. [you'd damn hope so.]
Done hard drugs [ ]
Taken painkillers. [only tylenol &&stuff.]
Cheated on someone else.with the same sex [bah. uhm. x times seventy.]
I <3 him.