Years. Years and years.
How could I possibly miss you? I swore I never would. And you, it's like you never happened. I can't even remember you.
Is this what forgiveness feels like?
I want to catch up, I want you to see what's new, I want to hear it too. People do that all the time.
But why can't I?
Maybe I have to say it out loud. Then it won't be true. That seems to be how I operate.
I can't wait for this to pass. I hate it. It's not real, it never will be again.
Any time I get what I want, it doesn't last for long. I wish I knew what I was supposed to be learning from all this. Because I want to stop making these same mistakes.
Everything's better off this way. And when you think everything's lost you've got me. Believe in what I say
What do I believe?
ETA: 3/28/11 (we won't get started on that)
It's not working. The more I talk the worse it gets. All conjecture and assumptions and borrowing trouble. I'll have to see what Janet thinks. And maybe R.R. The actual brain, or the supernatural?
Is this what forgiveness feels like?
I want to catch up, I want you to see what's new, I want to hear it too. People do that all the time.
But why can't I?
Maybe I have to say it out loud. Then it won't be true. That seems to be how I operate.
I can't wait for this to pass. I hate it. It's not real, it never will be again.
Any time I get what I want, it doesn't last for long. I wish I knew what I was supposed to be learning from all this. Because I want to stop making these same mistakes.
Everything's better off this way. And when you think everything's lost you've got me. Believe in what I say
What do I believe?
ETA: 3/28/11 (we won't get started on that)
It's not working. The more I talk the worse it gets. All conjecture and assumptions and borrowing trouble. I'll have to see what Janet thinks. And maybe R.R. The actual brain, or the supernatural?