Depression
... I haven't updated in a long time...
I suppose thats understandable due to all the shit thats hit the fan within the last 2 weeks. I'm so stressed and upset and ... I seriously can not stand life right now!
I attended my grandmothers funeral yesterday. That was really really REALLY hard for me. I dont like speaking about my family too much, but I was VERY close to her. I don't think I've ever cried as much before in my life. Very hard...
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I don't know what the hell is on my mind. I don't need what I want, or what I need...
New friends? No, of course not. I love all of my friends to an extreme, so for once in my life I'm really happy with my social circle.
Relationship? Yeah, probably... But those never work out... For me at least... And thats if I can even find one. I mean, my last "relationship" was sophmore year with "shudder" Anne Weiss... I think that just shows exactly how desperate I really can get.
...
Desperate, or how unattracitve I really am...
Do I want food?... Probably. I've been constantly eating since Thursday. I cant even keep count of exactly HOW much I ate...
Lets see...
1 and 1/2 chickens. Three deli sandwhiches. 5 slices of ham. 8 slices of turkey. Mexican grilled chicken dinner. Ice cream... lots of ice cream... Many different pastas, some cheese/potato/beef filled, some not. Yogurt... lots and lots of yogurt...
Theres more...
Lots more... But I dont want to bore you with whats floating around in my stomach right now.
I need more ice cream...
Damn depression...
I suppose thats understandable due to all the shit thats hit the fan within the last 2 weeks. I'm so stressed and upset and ... I seriously can not stand life right now!
I attended my grandmothers funeral yesterday. That was really really REALLY hard for me. I dont like speaking about my family too much, but I was VERY close to her. I don't think I've ever cried as much before in my life. Very hard...
...
I don't know what the hell is on my mind. I don't need what I want, or what I need...
New friends? No, of course not. I love all of my friends to an extreme, so for once in my life I'm really happy with my social circle.
Relationship? Yeah, probably... But those never work out... For me at least... And thats if I can even find one. I mean, my last "relationship" was sophmore year with "shudder" Anne Weiss... I think that just shows exactly how desperate I really can get.
...
Desperate, or how unattracitve I really am...
Do I want food?... Probably. I've been constantly eating since Thursday. I cant even keep count of exactly HOW much I ate...
Lets see...
1 and 1/2 chickens. Three deli sandwhiches. 5 slices of ham. 8 slices of turkey. Mexican grilled chicken dinner. Ice cream... lots of ice cream... Many different pastas, some cheese/potato/beef filled, some not. Yogurt... lots and lots of yogurt...
Theres more...
Lots more... But I dont want to bore you with whats floating around in my stomach right now.
I need more ice cream...
Damn depression...