Aug 31, 2004 01:16
I acknowledge the fact that I spelled the word "lose" incorrectly in my last entry. I apologize.
Brian and I have been hanging out daily... literally...
Yesterday we went to "Gore Orphanage". It was really quite interesting. Scary- No, Creepy- Yes, Cool- Very. It was just me and him snapping pictures and conjuring the dead. Brian gets all serious and closes his eyes and looks to the heavens and says things like "Spirits... are you there... we dont come to offend." I was choking back laughter. Brians a funny kid.
How the hell did this friendship work out?
Brian and I had this long in-depth talk on homosexuality at Malley's. Very interesting... I love hearing his views on it. He's very pro-gay... in some ways almost more so then myself. But, of course, I'm the most homophobic gay boy I've ever know...
Yesterday night, after the whole broo-ha-ha, Brian and I attempted to watch Cannibal Confederates... and failed miserably. That's because it is possibly the WORST film I have EVER seen... and that is saying alot. This movie was bad in a BAD way. Bad as in you question how someone could act in such a film and not live the rest of their lives slitting their wrists out of emberrassment. However, I suppose one should not expect much from a film entitled Cannibal Confederates...
So then I showed him Night of the Living Dead '68... and he actually liked it. Well, he said the last fifteen minutes were "extremely fucked up"... I take that as a compliment.
Today I showed him 28 Days Later. Not as much of a winner. However, Catie joined the hoopla and he popped in Urban Legends starring "Black Maria". There was also some unnamed drama that shall not be discussed. Giant hint... The fifth horseman of the apocalypse.
Mom was supposed to go in for surgery today. Of course it was canceled last minute. It seems like this whole thing is being drawn out even more just in order to torment her last few months. I want to do something for her and I know I cant and it seriously is like a knife to my chest. I went to visit her about two or so days ago. She looks worse then ever. She looks like a skeleton... her joints are visible through her skin and her hair has grown so sparse. She's covered in bruises from head to toe... It makes me sick to my stomach... Talking to her... Looking at her. Honestly, I still remember what she used to be. It's vague but I still see it... I miss it so bad. I need her right now. I need an adult... Something sensible... not that she was ever the most sensible woman.
God... give her a fucking break...
More negative shit... missed school, again. Slept over the alarm clocks... all four of them.
Lost my debit card.
Still no job. I called AMC... again... and they are no longer hiring. Thanks for the call buckaroo... I just said buckaroo...
I'm a failure... I complete and udder failure...
At least I cleaned today...
It's funny how this post did a complete 180... lets try to remain chipper, eh?
Dinner party on Wed! Last day of the Titanic... Break out the top hats. I wonder if a certain film starring an array of specific fingers will make an appearance???... Wink wink Catie Coleman... Nudge Nudge...
sick,
titanic,
mom,
amc,
gore orphanage,
black maria,
brian,
dinner party,
catie,
job hunting,
night of the living dead,
homosexuality,
cannibal confederates,
spirits,
urban legand,
gay