Case of the "Not Good Enough" blues....

[ilyanme]

Spent most of the weekend in so much pain, I could only lay in bed, on my stomach for most of the time. Only when I got so frustrated at being cooped up that I endured the pain to get up and go outside. It sucked and the worse part is that I'm awaiting an authorization from my ins company in order to get the pain pills my dr. wants me to start using. They are a non-drowsy type of pain pill, which is excellent cuz I've had a lot of problems with falling asleep at random times lately (like while driving or in the middle of writing note to myself -- I even dream in the short 5 sec period where I fall asleep). My rhuemotologist has ordered a sleep study to be done, to make sure that this sleepiness is related to the fibro and not due to narcolepsy or chronic fatigue syndrome. That's on the 23rd. Oh boy.

Mandy asked me to start writing. It was a very random and odd request coming from her, but she is random and odd at times. When I asked her why, she told me "Cuz it's something you love to do." She told me to imagine my book being done and published and it will happen. I told her that I didn't think my writing was good enough. And it's true. I don't think my writing is good enough to get published.  Yeah, I've had a couple shorts published but a novel is an entire different matter. *shrug* I dunno.

And, here I am falling asleep again. I guess I should check on why Cora has been in the bathroom for 20 mins.......