I'm Landing Now Forgetting How...
Your gravity ruins everything.
i'm Lost. in more than one way. i know most of my posts lately have been winey and lame. but it's not like anyone reads this anyway right? so who cares.
i remember when God felt closer than my skin. now he feels farther than the moon. He's not to blame. he didn't flee from me. i did. i fled from him. i turned the moment i was given the oppurtunity. boys were put in my face, hanging out, internet, this, or that. i gave him up for those other things. i've filled this void i have with boys, friends, anything and everything i could. but where am i now? no where. these boys dont really care about me. they just said they did.
HE DID CARE! and i pushed him away. he does care. but i'm still pushing him away. because i'm prideful and a loser. i know it'll take 5 mins and a little self disappline and i could fix all of this. or let him fix it more like it. but i dont. because i choose to sit here and feel void.
i. am. void.
i'm Lost. in more than one way. i know most of my posts lately have been winey and lame. but it's not like anyone reads this anyway right? so who cares.
i remember when God felt closer than my skin. now he feels farther than the moon. He's not to blame. he didn't flee from me. i did. i fled from him. i turned the moment i was given the oppurtunity. boys were put in my face, hanging out, internet, this, or that. i gave him up for those other things. i've filled this void i have with boys, friends, anything and everything i could. but where am i now? no where. these boys dont really care about me. they just said they did.
HE DID CARE! and i pushed him away. he does care. but i'm still pushing him away. because i'm prideful and a loser. i know it'll take 5 mins and a little self disappline and i could fix all of this. or let him fix it more like it. but i dont. because i choose to sit here and feel void.
i. am. void.