Here we go again...
I need more work to get my crazy mind off things; more work so that I won't think of you.
I don't want to be alone even for a second.
One of my best strengths is my photographic memory and my ability to concentrate and focus that I could not think of anything else but. This is a double edge sword though. On one side, this could be great when it comes to work, to projects, or to a relationship. On the other side, this could be devastating, when it comes to unreciprocated feelings, or to relationships not working. This drives me crazy especially when I'm alone. I know it's stupid and to an extent self destructive. But that's who I am. I wouldn't want not to be focused and well concentrated on doing stuff. I need to. My future (work) depends on it. Maybe I just need to find that wedge to separate feelings from work. And that is, things to do.
Which is my I need to find things to do, friends to be with, or dates to replace with. Whattodowhattodowhattodo.
No, I refuse to be alone at this stage, cause here I go spiraling down again.
I don't want to be alone even for a second.
One of my best strengths is my photographic memory and my ability to concentrate and focus that I could not think of anything else but. This is a double edge sword though. On one side, this could be great when it comes to work, to projects, or to a relationship. On the other side, this could be devastating, when it comes to unreciprocated feelings, or to relationships not working. This drives me crazy especially when I'm alone. I know it's stupid and to an extent self destructive. But that's who I am. I wouldn't want not to be focused and well concentrated on doing stuff. I need to. My future (work) depends on it. Maybe I just need to find that wedge to separate feelings from work. And that is, things to do.
Which is my I need to find things to do, friends to be with, or dates to replace with. Whattodowhattodowhattodo.
No, I refuse to be alone at this stage, cause here I go spiraling down again.