.....pensive thoughts.....
The more and more I think about what my doctor is going to say, the more stressed I get. My stomach churns and I get a lump in my throat. I know that what is going to happen, is going to happen, and it is Gods Hand's now. I just don't mentally or physically think I could handle the stresses of what may lay down the road right now. I know I am not alone regardless of the outcome, but I feel like I am. The people who mean the world to me: are too far away, the people who are near by: Don't know, and the ones who do know: are busy. I feel like my life is spinning and it won't stop. I also know I am being rediculous. Things may be fine, but for some strange reason, my subconcious keeps telling me otherwise. For my praying friends, please keep me in prayer, and as soon as I get a call on Wednesday I will let you all know the outcome.
I sit here crying and wishing I was in the hug of a friend or someone who cares, but its not going to happen. I am so tired of feeling like this, and I just want it to end.
If there is anyone out there who knows how much I care about them, call me. I need a friend or two to talk to tonight. I love you guys and miss everyone!
Love, Me
"My head is in a cloud of sorrow
But my feet are on the ground
There's hope for me as long as there's tomorrow
It's in God's hands now"
I sit here crying and wishing I was in the hug of a friend or someone who cares, but its not going to happen. I am so tired of feeling like this, and I just want it to end.
If there is anyone out there who knows how much I care about them, call me. I need a friend or two to talk to tonight. I love you guys and miss everyone!
Love, Me
"My head is in a cloud of sorrow
But my feet are on the ground
There's hope for me as long as there's tomorrow
It's in God's hands now"