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so the new semester has started, not too worried about my classes, except PoliSci just cuz it means I'll have to actually put effort into something I have no interest in whatsoever...but the bright side of that is, I have that class with Brandon so that makes studying more fun :)
Getting engaged makes you think alot. I'm sure alot of people are thinking "why would she want to commit to someone so early blah blah blah"...and that's gone through my head too. If anyone else would have told me they were engaged at 20 I'd think and say the sames things. But as I look around at all the girls trying to get all cute (which usually means wearing some tiny ass skirt and a tight sweater regardless of the 6 inches of snow on the ground which seem to mean nothing to them) to impress the new guys in their classes. I've been there, I've done that. Yah I'm only 20 but I've been dating guys since I was 15. The first guy I dated I was with for over a year, and yah it might have been a little high school relationship where our parents had to drive us to every date we ever went on but it taught me alot. I've learned from every relationship I've been in, and I'm thankful for it. In 6 years I've met countless guys (ok that makes me sound like a whore, don't take it like that) and I've been loved, and been in love. Every guy I've ever dated I still think about and reminice about from time to time, and I try to keep in touch with most of them, since at one point or another, they were the biggest part of my life. I've had my heart broken and have had guys tell me I "ruined" their lives by breaking up with them or something, who knows how true any of it is but looking back on it makes me realize how much it all made me grow into who I am today. I've dated enough guys to know what I want and what I definitely don't want in a boyfriend. And I guess when I met Brandon and got to know him, I slowly opened up and let him into my life...not to say it wasn't hard because it was, I moved home from SVSU with the opinion that all guys were scum and didn't deserve to walk this earth (haha) and he pulled me out of that and showed me what love REALLY is. Not the high school love where you fight behind closed doors but put on a cute show for everyone else so they don't know what's really going on, real actual love, where you know everything about the other person and love them more because of it. You love not only their strenths but their flaws as well, and spend every day wanting them to be better, not for you but for themselves. You put yourself before the other person, and would, without a second thought, do absolutly anything for them. It's an amazing thing, and as many times as I thought I'd found this "true love" that the movies glamorize, I look back and realize it was an illusion. Not that I didn't love those people in another way, and not that I didn't care for them alot, but it wasn't like this. I cannot honestly imagine going a day in my life without him....to everyone out there, women and men, don't ever settle. Don't ever thing you can't get any better-you can. It takes time and one day, when you're least expecting it, that person will walk into your life and you'll be forever changed. I hope for everyone that I know that they find their prince charming or their princess where they'll feel this way forever about....
alright well that was a good long entry :) Now it's off to my only class of today, yay :)
Getting engaged makes you think alot. I'm sure alot of people are thinking "why would she want to commit to someone so early blah blah blah"...and that's gone through my head too. If anyone else would have told me they were engaged at 20 I'd think and say the sames things. But as I look around at all the girls trying to get all cute (which usually means wearing some tiny ass skirt and a tight sweater regardless of the 6 inches of snow on the ground which seem to mean nothing to them) to impress the new guys in their classes. I've been there, I've done that. Yah I'm only 20 but I've been dating guys since I was 15. The first guy I dated I was with for over a year, and yah it might have been a little high school relationship where our parents had to drive us to every date we ever went on but it taught me alot. I've learned from every relationship I've been in, and I'm thankful for it. In 6 years I've met countless guys (ok that makes me sound like a whore, don't take it like that) and I've been loved, and been in love. Every guy I've ever dated I still think about and reminice about from time to time, and I try to keep in touch with most of them, since at one point or another, they were the biggest part of my life. I've had my heart broken and have had guys tell me I "ruined" their lives by breaking up with them or something, who knows how true any of it is but looking back on it makes me realize how much it all made me grow into who I am today. I've dated enough guys to know what I want and what I definitely don't want in a boyfriend. And I guess when I met Brandon and got to know him, I slowly opened up and let him into my life...not to say it wasn't hard because it was, I moved home from SVSU with the opinion that all guys were scum and didn't deserve to walk this earth (haha) and he pulled me out of that and showed me what love REALLY is. Not the high school love where you fight behind closed doors but put on a cute show for everyone else so they don't know what's really going on, real actual love, where you know everything about the other person and love them more because of it. You love not only their strenths but their flaws as well, and spend every day wanting them to be better, not for you but for themselves. You put yourself before the other person, and would, without a second thought, do absolutly anything for them. It's an amazing thing, and as many times as I thought I'd found this "true love" that the movies glamorize, I look back and realize it was an illusion. Not that I didn't love those people in another way, and not that I didn't care for them alot, but it wasn't like this. I cannot honestly imagine going a day in my life without him....to everyone out there, women and men, don't ever settle. Don't ever thing you can't get any better-you can. It takes time and one day, when you're least expecting it, that person will walk into your life and you'll be forever changed. I hope for everyone that I know that they find their prince charming or their princess where they'll feel this way forever about....
alright well that was a good long entry :) Now it's off to my only class of today, yay :)