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It is one chilly night here on Massachusetts Ave. Atleast the dishes that were in the sink are now clean and the rest of the place is pretty much in order as well. I wish I had a more sturdy screwdriver to get the blinds up in the bathroom, but maybe I'll find one tomorrow.
The next greatest edition to the apartment will be my baby kitten I'm bringing home tomorrow after 3 pm. She is gorgeous; looks like she could be on a cat calendar. She's a medium hair grey kitten, with grey eyes that match her fur. Her paws are white. She's a little less than 3 months old, soooo tiny. I can't wait to bring her here. It'll be so nice to have her in my company when I feel lonely. After my Rumsey art show, the question was "Should I get a cat or a boyfriend?" and obviously the cat won. I cannot wait to add her to my new family :)
I know I live with 3 people. But this weekend was the worst. I felt so alone. I haven't felt that way in such a long time. Alex and Nick have each other; they invite their guy friends over. Lauren leaves all weekend to see her boyfriend in Rochester. My work hasn't been giving lots of hours out. So I stay in my apartment by myself. There's nothing wrong with that, but it's been cold here, and everyone has been ignoring my text messages. Which is hard for me to handle because my last boyfriend always ignored me, so I get all these anxieties and I get upset when someone doesn't text me back. I can't help it, but I wish I could. So this was just probably not the weekend to ignore me, because now I have grudges on like 5 people currently.
I don't want to further things with Rich. I don't have feelings for Erik. I'm figuring out whether I should tell them it's not gonna work out or just do that whole fade out thing that sucks...I think I've been in a bad mood because I'm so frustrated from these two people that care about me that I can't return feelings and emotions for. Ha, and then the guys I might be interested in, clearly aren't interested in me. That's how it always works.
I'm recently interested in medicinal photography and related subjects. I think I may do a bunch of studies towards that for senior thesis this year. I want to take film photographs of people after surgeries, and I want to see if I can create an x-ray machine from a camera and a few other contraptions. If someone can make a photobooth out of a scanner, I think I can make an x-ray out of a camera. It might be cancerous and illegal, but I guess we'll just have to see what I come up with.
Pancakes at my photo teachers house tomorrow :) I'm super excited.