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today i drove liz home...it was fun. I liked it, i was like freaking out and screaming a little but it was fun. I enjoyed it. I haven't seen "him" in a while. It makes me kind of sad. We're supposed to talk just me and him the next time he comes over. I'm scared it's going to be something that i don't want to hear, but what can i do if it's not good? I guess i'll just have to wait and see. I have to get up tomorrow morning with David and go to Drivers Traning, he's spending the night so i'm not going to bed until he is. lol.
i've been doing a lot of thinking...making decisions...it's stressful. I dont like it too much, but it's all apart of life right? I just think that somethings are crazy. Just everything that goes on in my head, it's not really what i would even expect to be going through it. There are just so many things that are simple and just beautiful and you can't hold them or see them...it's the smell of rain when you just stopped crying. Knowing that just everything can be perfect if you see it as perfect...not what everyone else thinks is perfect.
So i think i found my rain...tears and perfection.