yup still confused!
so yea im still really confused and last night really sisnt help it at all. me and megan went over to jacobs house, a friends i no from walmart parkinglot, fun place to hang out at, anyways so we went over there a zack was there. i new he would be there and i was kinda lookin forward to seeing him again, since i hadnt seen him like all week. so we all hung out over there and we had a good time but zack was like tryin to be all over me and it just wasnt helping. dont get me wrong i like zack and i would date him but there is sumthing big thats blocking the way... BRIAN!!! i luv brian and i really dont want to hurt him and i really dont want to leave him! but it really is like we argue or disagree about the stupidest smallest stuff. and then hell come over the house and sleep most of or the whole time he's over here. but i guess i can understand, last night he was up late partying and then he didnt go to work today but yea... ok. my only thing is that he does this like every weekend... and its sorta startin to get old. hes 18 goin on 19, i mean its time to grow up a little bit and start doin sumthin with his life. but i dunno maybe i just want sumthin or someone that isnt realistic! i dunno.... i dunno.... I REALLY DONT KNOW!!!! i need help! i guess im outty... oh yea we came up short again... stupid fuckers! i hate referees!!! we beat them on the field just not on the score board. 2nd flippin year in a row. maybe next year well get there and win it all!!!
~Jessi~
~Jessi~