why me
so lately life has taken i guess a turn for the boring! all i do is work go to school and hang with my friends... when theres time! notice i said friends, not boyfriend or guy im dating, and i never talk bbout goin on dates nemore. last year and even at the beginning of there year i dated alot more than i do now ... this blows! im thinkin bout getting another job, that is once summer roles around. greg and his wife (owners of sandys subs) are trying to get me to work there... im thinking bout it but i dunno. greg said that me and jonny cud run the snack bar this summer at the racket club so that will be bringin in a little bit more money. and then ive always got that great job at lowes ... oh that place is wonderful. kidding kidding kidding... if i even said that about there i would expect someone to hit me and really hard at that!!! oh yea... so prom is in like 3 weeks ... the 23 of this month and i dont think im goin. i dont have a date and im most deffinatly not goin stag... so yea. i dunno! i sorta wanna say sumthin to darren but i dont think that would be a really good idea... seeing as how i dont no if heather is takin kyle or not... so yea. i really guess im not goin... sorta blows! the one person i do wanna go with already has a date, has had a date for a while. theyre not a couple but still... grrrrrrr.. i really wanna go with him. nothin really works out my way when it comes to guys... i have come to realize that and it SUX!!!so i was talkin to darren lasst night and he was like well i really like... famous words heard way too many times... hes really likes me but doesnt want a gf right now and especially not me cuz he has the tendency to cheat on his gfs, and really doesnt want to hurt me. it sorta made me mad... nut the thing that really upset me was when he sad he just wanted a friend that he cud screw and not have to worry bout her gettin mad when he talks to other girls. i told him straight up that that deffinatly wasnt me.i cant do this crap nemore.i just want a freakin bf... damn why does it have to be so hard!? well im bout to go see if jonny needs to be picked up from his laccross game yet or not... talk lata!!!!
~~~~~~Jessica~~~~~~
~~~~~~Jessica~~~~~~