.....................................consciousness
it is strange how i feel that i am constantly drifting in and out of consciousness
(of course i also find myself in various levels of it)
entire days will pass, and i will
look at them as days that
happened, but days that i, personally, was not a part of
every now and then I become conscious of myself, i feel myself
usually this does not happen often, however it has begun to happen more frequently
an amazing feeling it is, to break
the mold, to escape the
flow, to act
upon personal needs and desires that i understand.
it is during these times where i begin to question my disbelief in free will,
because it is during these infrequent
times that i almost feel like i have a choice
however, i feel like i have little power during these phases, thinking while in this state
seems to take more energy than it usually does, thus causing me to become exhausted easily
and quickly
i often wonder why, what causes me to become so tired so quickly
Why is this state so
special, and why does it drain me so?
why am i so seldom in this state (or happy for that matter)
and
what can i do to spend more time (by finding my way here more often or spending more time here) in this
state
"you've got style from your hair to your heels" - paul simon
(of course i also find myself in various levels of it)
entire days will pass, and i will
look at them as days that
happened, but days that i, personally, was not a part of
every now and then I become conscious of myself, i feel myself
usually this does not happen often, however it has begun to happen more frequently
an amazing feeling it is, to break
the mold, to escape the
flow, to act
upon personal needs and desires that i understand.
it is during these times where i begin to question my disbelief in free will,
because it is during these infrequent
times that i almost feel like i have a choice
however, i feel like i have little power during these phases, thinking while in this state
seems to take more energy than it usually does, thus causing me to become exhausted easily
and quickly
i often wonder why, what causes me to become so tired so quickly
Why is this state so
special, and why does it drain me so?
why am i so seldom in this state (or happy for that matter)
and
what can i do to spend more time (by finding my way here more often or spending more time here) in this
state
"you've got style from your hair to your heels" - paul simon