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I haven't written in here in a LONG time. Soo many things have happened. Me and Dan are completely over. There is no turning back. I don't talk to anyone from school much anymore. I've come to realize that if you change a little than your old friends don't really want to hangout with you anymore. The only person that i still talk to is Anthony. I work at Papa John's Pizza in Evans Mills. I really suck at relationships too, but there is one person that i do like and have liked for a lonnng time. I have my hopes up but i don't think that i'll get hurt by him. I'll see where that goes i guess.
I thought i was going to be happy that i'm out of school. But it scares me. I miss it. I'm looking forward to starting college. Just i don't know what i want to go there for. nothing really sparks an interest. i was considering doing nursing but i love cooking. the only college that i can afford is JCC. I'm kind of interested in becoming a Gynocologist or even a Coronor. I just don't know anymore.
I'm on the verge of just giving up on everything. It's starting to become pointless. I wanted to make something of myself but i really don't think that's going to happen. I think maybe i just need to get away from new york for a while. maybe go down south to mississippi and stay with my brother and his girlfriend. not for long, just long enought to get my head straightened out. i think it might be good for me. get me away from some of the stupid shit that i'm doing up here. i'm on the verge of hating my self. I know i'm starting to hate what i'm becoming.
I thought i was going to be happy that i'm out of school. But it scares me. I miss it. I'm looking forward to starting college. Just i don't know what i want to go there for. nothing really sparks an interest. i was considering doing nursing but i love cooking. the only college that i can afford is JCC. I'm kind of interested in becoming a Gynocologist or even a Coronor. I just don't know anymore.
I'm on the verge of just giving up on everything. It's starting to become pointless. I wanted to make something of myself but i really don't think that's going to happen. I think maybe i just need to get away from new york for a while. maybe go down south to mississippi and stay with my brother and his girlfriend. not for long, just long enought to get my head straightened out. i think it might be good for me. get me away from some of the stupid shit that i'm doing up here. i'm on the verge of hating my self. I know i'm starting to hate what i'm becoming.