May 17, 2011 23:48
I have two secrets that I am keeping from everyone. I kind of told Becky about them today but I curtailed my way out of actually telling them to her. I have been trying to lose weight and doing really well at it. Well, i thought I was gaining weight again so I stopped eating. I think I eat maybe once a day if that. It is getting to the point where my hair is starting fall out though which is not a good thing. I have a lot of hair and I am pretty sure if I keep losing hair like I am it is going to start to get noticeable. I don't want to talk about the other secret because it is something else. I really am not going to admit that I have a problem, because in all reality I don't have a problem. Although, if I keep up the way I am going I will have a HUGE problem to deal with and it will not be pretty when it comes crashing down on me.
We will just leave it at that.
Yes, I am starving myself to lose weight, I know it isn't the right way but damn it I want to be skinny. Is that too much to ask? I have tried everything before and I have failed miserably at them all. I am being careful though. I also am taking my vitamin D to help with the losing the weight...that is all.