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so my computer is hella messed up and i cant do a lot of stuff on it, including update this thing which is the reason i haven't posted in like a year. whatever.
im so scared right now, i start my field placement tomorrow and the lady who im suppose to work with (a social worker at an elementary school in manorville) is home with her dying husband, which is horrible and even when she comes back im just going to feel so bad for her and not know how to act because i dont even know her and i dont know, it's just going to be sad.
Anyways, the social worker from the high school is going to try and help me get started but she was like "oh, we're setting you up with groups and i'll help you the first few days and then you can take them over and call me over at the high school if necessary".
WHat?!?!?!?!?
I'll pracitically have no supervision. I will be the only working social worker at this huge elementary school and i have no experience and don't know anyone there and I'm so scared. I'm scared all the other employees there are going to look at me like a kid and think im and idiot. Which, really i am. I have no experience in this and i have no idea what im getting into.
Im starting to question if i can do this, this whole growing up thing and acquiring all this responsibility. I just feel so overwhelmed and it scares the hell out of me. I like getting away with crap because im just "young and dont know".
I wish i had money, i know it doesn't bring happiness but it does bring ease and allow for a lot of dreams to become realities. I want an apartment so bad. I want to move in with mickey, ive gotten like sick lately when im not with him at night. I just have gotten so use to falling asleep in his arms that it's hard to be by myself at night. Especially since when im by myself at night I start thinking about every worry in the world and getting myself upset. When I'm with mickey it is just so much easier.
I dont know, I'm so immature still, i dont think im ready for what is in store this next year. I still want to go to parties all the time and have fun. wahhhh
Amy, i know im not on the same level as you, but trust me i feel the same sort of weights coming down on me and I do not feel ready what so ever. This sucks.
im so scared right now, i start my field placement tomorrow and the lady who im suppose to work with (a social worker at an elementary school in manorville) is home with her dying husband, which is horrible and even when she comes back im just going to feel so bad for her and not know how to act because i dont even know her and i dont know, it's just going to be sad.
Anyways, the social worker from the high school is going to try and help me get started but she was like "oh, we're setting you up with groups and i'll help you the first few days and then you can take them over and call me over at the high school if necessary".
WHat?!?!?!?!?
I'll pracitically have no supervision. I will be the only working social worker at this huge elementary school and i have no experience and don't know anyone there and I'm so scared. I'm scared all the other employees there are going to look at me like a kid and think im and idiot. Which, really i am. I have no experience in this and i have no idea what im getting into.
Im starting to question if i can do this, this whole growing up thing and acquiring all this responsibility. I just feel so overwhelmed and it scares the hell out of me. I like getting away with crap because im just "young and dont know".
I wish i had money, i know it doesn't bring happiness but it does bring ease and allow for a lot of dreams to become realities. I want an apartment so bad. I want to move in with mickey, ive gotten like sick lately when im not with him at night. I just have gotten so use to falling asleep in his arms that it's hard to be by myself at night. Especially since when im by myself at night I start thinking about every worry in the world and getting myself upset. When I'm with mickey it is just so much easier.
I dont know, I'm so immature still, i dont think im ready for what is in store this next year. I still want to go to parties all the time and have fun. wahhhh
Amy, i know im not on the same level as you, but trust me i feel the same sort of weights coming down on me and I do not feel ready what so ever. This sucks.