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we learned about this thing in class the other day, i believe it was called cognitive dissonance and it basically means that like if you have two contrdictory beliefs or feelings, you work to make them agree.
and i've realized this is me all the time....my professor used the example, "like if you know someone is a bad person and yet you like them anyway"
I feel this way about a couple of people...boys in particular.
i know they're bad people and yet i get like obsessive over them, because i feel like they treat me differently then other people or something....and maybe if i can win them over it means something, like im special or something.
im so fucked up.
i can't stand this.
i don't follow my instincts.
I also feel like i have no distinctive personality. Like I like so many different kinds of people. I don't get how my friends could think someone was dumb because of how they were and yet i like them a lot. I see this a lot and i understand why they don't like them, but like I just see another side...or i dont think the reason for dissliking them is such a big deal. I don't know, i'm so random. It is sort of upsetting.
and i've realized this is me all the time....my professor used the example, "like if you know someone is a bad person and yet you like them anyway"
I feel this way about a couple of people...boys in particular.
i know they're bad people and yet i get like obsessive over them, because i feel like they treat me differently then other people or something....and maybe if i can win them over it means something, like im special or something.
im so fucked up.
i can't stand this.
i don't follow my instincts.
I also feel like i have no distinctive personality. Like I like so many different kinds of people. I don't get how my friends could think someone was dumb because of how they were and yet i like them a lot. I see this a lot and i understand why they don't like them, but like I just see another side...or i dont think the reason for dissliking them is such a big deal. I don't know, i'm so random. It is sort of upsetting.