I love you so much. And it hurts my heart so bad to know that you are hurting so much, more than I can ever even begin to imagine or understand. And there aren't any words, or any amount of hugs or kisses or icecreams or anything that I could give you to make this easier or better for you. I would give anything I had if I thought it would make you feel even a little bit better.
The only thing I can offer you is just me. Someone to talk to, to cry to, to cry with. Someone to hold your hand, to hug you and kiss you and cuddle you. Someone to just sit with you. Someone to take you away, to their house, to the park, out to the middle of nowhere just to stand in a field and scream and throw rocks. Someone to buy you icecreams or make cupcakes with. Someone to be silly with and laugh with and remember good times with. Someone you never have to pretend for. Someone that loves you and will always be there for you no matter what. I think you already know that, but it's just nice to hear sometimes. And I know you would do the same for me.
You ARE a good mother. You will always be his mommy, even though he isn't here anymore. You will always have those beautiful memories of the time you did get to share together, and no one can ever take that away from you.
I know that you loved him more in the short time he was here than a lot of mothers ever love their children. And it's not fair.
There are so many things he will never get to experience, and so many things you won't get to experience with him. But what he DID experience - being safe, being loved, and being happy - well, those are the best things. His whole life was only good things, the best things. That's something that I find comfort in.
I know that it's going to take a long time for your heart to heal, and it's something that has to be done on your own time, when you yourself are ready. Just know that I am here when and if you need me, and that I love you very much, more than a best friend even. To me, you are like the best of both a best friend and a sister. I love you the most.
The only thing I can offer you is just me. Someone to talk to, to cry to, to cry with. Someone to hold your hand, to hug you and kiss you and cuddle you. Someone to just sit with you. Someone to take you away, to their house, to the park, out to the middle of nowhere just to stand in a field and scream and throw rocks. Someone to buy you icecreams or make cupcakes with. Someone to be silly with and laugh with and remember good times with. Someone you never have to pretend for. Someone that loves you and will always be there for you no matter what. I think you already know that, but it's just nice to hear sometimes. And I know you would do the same for me.
You ARE a good mother. You will always be his mommy, even though he isn't here anymore. You will always have those beautiful memories of the time you did get to share together, and no one can ever take that away from you.
I know that you loved him more in the short time he was here than a lot of mothers ever love their children. And it's not fair.
There are so many things he will never get to experience, and so many things you won't get to experience with him. But what he DID experience - being safe, being loved, and being happy - well, those are the best things. His whole life was only good things, the best things. That's something that I find comfort in.
I know that it's going to take a long time for your heart to heal, and it's something that has to be done on your own time, when you yourself are ready. Just know that I am here when and if you need me, and that I love you very much, more than a best friend even. To me, you are like the best of both a best friend and a sister. I love you the most.
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