Some thoughts~
I came to this conclusion during yesterday's chats with aud...coz...some how or rather, got interrogated by her...boh bian..I told her about my bf and me. Guess what? The first thing she asked was whether it's tree trunk or the other guy?! And no...haha...I told her that his name doesn't starts with R. That prompted her to ask me even more questions liao. Heh~ So I just roughly summarized everything she wanted to know lah...
And in the midst of convoying...I realised something. Remember a list of wants/don't-wants in a guy? That I made long long itme ago....haha... :p It seems that you can one thousand million wants or don't wants, but then, when the right person appears, you overlook everything. And that's what I have done. My list can be considered null and void, because it ain't my determining factor with that guy. It's something else I guess, something which is undecipherable. Haha...like I always asked him...why did he want me? He couldn't say anything. Or maybe he didn't want to let me know. Oh well....
Yeah loh, so aud was like..."in the end your list also useless hor"...and I think it's very true. Haha....I somehow never thought that I will leave that list on its own, and heck it...because I was stubborn, very stubborn in fact. Often think of myself as an ice queen, holding everything back and then not showing any form of emotion. But actually, now it's still the same. I still hold back, not a lot, but a bit...Just haven't gotten used to the fact of opening up, I think...
Anyways, as of today me and him are officially one week le! Haha...and to think that on this day I can't even be with him. Haiiiz. He's busy I think, so well, I gotta study also, he has to study also, can't possibly expect him to come all the way down to accompany me...that will be too much. :) Yeah, right now I am like, trying to be a nice gf. Hahaha...and not succeeding at it...because I am still rather passive in some sense and leaving everything up to him to do all the work. Things shall change lah...hopefully...heh heh~
Yeah, and I saw tree trunk at the exam venue today too! And I spoke to him. He's still cold cold, aloof aloof type. Aiya who cares man...because I was kind of lost and since he was around, shun bian ask him loh... And then after asking him I went off...then he sort of remembered and just wished me 'All the best' when my back was turned. Well, I didn't even look back. Hahahaha....Score 1 for me! :p And score 100s for my bf! Hahaha... :p He totally has no effect on me liao...no longer that 'rush' I used to feel whenever I see him. Can say that he has been totally driven out of my head liao...good thing for me. Hahaha... :)
And just now when I was walking back to hall I met him and his good friend halfway...wanted to call out but then decided not to. What for? It's probably of no point...at least if I am walking alone I have time to think about my bf. Come to think of it...I think of my bf like all the time...whenever I have some free time. Does he thinks of me that much too??
ilusion and her disillusioned thoughts as usual
And in the midst of convoying...I realised something. Remember a list of wants/don't-wants in a guy? That I made long long itme ago....haha... :p It seems that you can one thousand million wants or don't wants, but then, when the right person appears, you overlook everything. And that's what I have done. My list can be considered null and void, because it ain't my determining factor with that guy. It's something else I guess, something which is undecipherable. Haha...like I always asked him...why did he want me? He couldn't say anything. Or maybe he didn't want to let me know. Oh well....
Yeah loh, so aud was like..."in the end your list also useless hor"...and I think it's very true. Haha....I somehow never thought that I will leave that list on its own, and heck it...because I was stubborn, very stubborn in fact. Often think of myself as an ice queen, holding everything back and then not showing any form of emotion. But actually, now it's still the same. I still hold back, not a lot, but a bit...Just haven't gotten used to the fact of opening up, I think...
Anyways, as of today me and him are officially one week le! Haha...and to think that on this day I can't even be with him. Haiiiz. He's busy I think, so well, I gotta study also, he has to study also, can't possibly expect him to come all the way down to accompany me...that will be too much. :) Yeah, right now I am like, trying to be a nice gf. Hahaha...and not succeeding at it...because I am still rather passive in some sense and leaving everything up to him to do all the work. Things shall change lah...hopefully...heh heh~
Yeah, and I saw tree trunk at the exam venue today too! And I spoke to him. He's still cold cold, aloof aloof type. Aiya who cares man...because I was kind of lost and since he was around, shun bian ask him loh... And then after asking him I went off...then he sort of remembered and just wished me 'All the best' when my back was turned. Well, I didn't even look back. Hahahaha....Score 1 for me! :p And score 100s for my bf! Hahaha... :p He totally has no effect on me liao...no longer that 'rush' I used to feel whenever I see him. Can say that he has been totally driven out of my head liao...good thing for me. Hahaha... :)
And just now when I was walking back to hall I met him and his good friend halfway...wanted to call out but then decided not to. What for? It's probably of no point...at least if I am walking alone I have time to think about my bf. Come to think of it...I think of my bf like all the time...whenever I have some free time. Does he thinks of me that much too??
ilusion and her disillusioned thoughts as usual