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hey hey
so, friday i did really nothing..my moms friend came from Ohio..had a couple laughs with her. ordered some food from my work. Got online and started talking to don, and put up my good away message of being mad @ dan..and don imed me and said that dan said that he loves me, and i was like fuck that blah blah...after like 10 minutes dan got on..jesus christ what the fuck am i going to do, he wants me back and i mean i want him to, he said hes in love with me and that he loves me and im this and that and its killing him. but he hurt me again, yes we werent together but that still hurts, and i told him straight out how i felt about it and how im just not going to take him back like that. i miss him so fucking much, he hasent been in school..theres a reason but im not going to say, but anywase and then hes like will you take me back!? and im like you can wait and prove yourself to me and hes like i cant wait..and i said well then i dunno what to tell you. and hes like okay i can wait.
then i got a steak of evil in me, and im like yeah im gunna get laid but todd, and hes like whos todd? and im like a boy and hes like if u fuck him i will kill you and him, and im thinking to myself well revenge is sweet..but im not like that. I see sex as love, sharing that with that person, not fucking. and he just did that and i mean argh. maybe cos i wasent given him any? but still he said he understood im not ready for that. so?
i ended up talking to fat ass and told her it will never happen again, and shes like good cos i dont want him..duh cos hes using u asshole lol..
i miss him..so much
rach and her mom came to get me from work @ 9 on Saturday...went to my house and got some things, went back to hers and chilled, got up and went to the dairy festivle in springville. It was so hot, speaking of hot there was manyyyy hot skaters lol cos there was a skatin demo going on..and then went to meet my step-dad in arcade at 3:30 cos i had to go to work @ 5, "(
came home took a quick COLD bath and checked my cell, there was 7 voice messages, course one from dan.."( called me at 2 in the morn and a couple from juda and 2 hang ups? well anywase...went to work sweated my fucking ass off lol and came home did laundry blah..i tried calling him back but he was outside, maybe he will call me tonite..
soo schools been kinda going by fast, my step-dad is picking me up from school *thanks god* i fucking hate riding that stupid bus home, it takes so long, i gotta go and get some things. and my mom works till 9:30..it wud be alot better but my sisters there.
shes always there and shes so fucking annoying, i mean shes 20 and has no job and sits on her ass cos she has no money DUHHH. always messing up my room USING all of my things wearing my fucking clothes exc. god im so sick of her, ill come home and shell be on her ass eating and watching tv. god do something with urself.