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This Week has been so crazy! I've been working like crazy and it still doesn't feel like enough.
Plus a person who i thought was a friend, and who i trusted. Turned around and stabbed me in the back.
This person betrayed my trust, and it sucks!
I've been going over the whole thing over and over in my head. I just can't believe this person did this!
As it was happening i was like "Wow! Am i even here right now?" it felt like a whole out of body experience. This person left me feeling like i was just dragged through the trench's.
What i've learned from this, is to chose wisely before i let anyone get that close to trust.
It's a very sad thing, to have this happen to you. It's not the first time it's happened to me, what was my best friend back in 8th grade, left me hanging. By hanging out with people who were cooler then me.
But i'm not in 8th grade anymore! and this wasn't even a teenager, this was a full grown woman. An adult! Which is somehow worse, you are supposed to trust adults!
It's weird. When all of this was happening, afterward i felt like i could leave.
Not runaway or anything. But like if i wanted to Tomorrow i could pick a city, a state, a country and leave! Make a new start! Going away for college doesn't seem so scary.
It all changed in that moment. My eyes cleared of childish things, i wanted freedom! No adult can hold me down!
I have my goals and i'm going to meet them! I'm going to prove everyone wrong about me!
I guess the sliver lining would be that this has lit a fire under me.
I'm not going to go into what exactly happened, but let's just say i look at this person differently.
I feel different. Like i'm just waking up.
I'll keep you posted on my progress. And i'm going to try to write more. Maybe more of things i have an option on. and maybe a fandom/fan fiction story. We'll see.
-K