a little stressed

[iloveyoutoo16]

okay so as of right now I have alot of stress in my life... I am not getting enough sleep my comma key doesn't work so my inner grammar nazi is going insane right now and I have started to get deep into the play. The performance is in a month and I havent even seen the lightboard or gotten a copy of the script yet... I'm a little stressed. Callbacks for madrigals are tomarrow and i have been practicing ever since I got home from rehearsal. I have been okay but I don't have any confidence and I am starting to space out so I go sharp or flat. I really really really want to make it into madrigals and if I don't make it in and I get put into the advanced choir my senior year... I mean its still a good choir but I will cry. this is my last chance to do this because it is my senior year and I really really really want to make it into madrigals! like I really really really want to! I don't think people understand how badly I want this. I also really want to start drivers ed but I have no time especially with the play. I'm trying to impress my coaches so I can make varsity softball but I'm worried I might miss tryouts because of the play. Goodness what have I gotten myself into... I really really just wish that I didn't have so many obligations. as of right now my weekend is completely packed it is friday night babysitting for the brat. saturday is catching then rehearsal and I end around 4 and the rest of the day I can maintain my sanity but I can't stay up late because I have softball the next day. so from 4 to like 10 I have to myself.. I might want to see if anyone wants to go ice skating even though I should be saving my money just in case I can afford to get myself down to NC for the 16's reunion but I don't even know... I don't really want to since they will all be talking about JC's and I wont have anything to talk about because I wasn't accepted. they will all talk about how happy they were when they got there letters and I willl be left out and that would just suck.. I really want to write more but I want to practice my song a few more times before I have to go to bed and I don't think I can do that so I will have to wake up early... and I still need to do my math and english homework and finish my chem which I started and as soon as I got really into it and I was almost done my mom was like LIZ TAKE OUT THE TRASH and I was like MOM IM DOING MY HOMEWORK CANT YOU SEE THAT and she was like WELL TAKE A BREAK and I'm like ooo jeeze... I really want to get honor role this quarter... that would like make my year. I am not looking forward to next year because I have no idea what I will be able to accomplish if I am stuck with 2 AP classes precalc physics and 2 varsity sports and guitar and hopefully madrigals and some other class I havent chosen yet... I can't have a free period because my grades arent good enough... I miss everyone at GS but I seriously doubt they even remember who "Liz Burman" is...

fuck I just wish this would go away... but no I can't even write anymore because I have to do my homework..

bye y'all

-Liz