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i feel so terrible right now. i don't understand why i'm not crying. with the obvious exception of my uncle's death, i don't think i've ever heard worse news in my life. and i can't even imagine how his family feels. or his close friends. because seriously, i barely know him. and the last time i saw him was on my birthday. he walked karen and i home. because he's a nice guy. and he doesn't deserve this. not at all. he is one of the very few people i have met in my life who is just genuinely nice. there are no motives behind his kindness. not many other people would have sat with me on the stairs and sang to me because i was having a bad day. and that says a lot about him. i want to be able to change everything just so everybody wouldnt be so sad. more than anything i just want him to be okay. for his sake and for everyone elses. he doesnt deserve what has happened to him. but his friends dont deserve to be so sad either.