do you not realize you guys are my life

[iloveyou0969]

i didnt think i would feel
this sad again. wow this whole thing is not
because im grounded but becuase we all
make priomises and never keep them
im just going to try and be as honest as i can
i feel i have no trust ne more in myself or ne
one.. someone who gets close i push them away
and its not terms of a guy just ne one.. no more
secrets str8 up honesty now.. i wish it would just
stop.. be somewhat how things used to be but they wont
ever again... i look at other people and think why cant
i be like that but then again im me and i have to deal wiht it
and noithing i do will ever change it.
so im str8

if i could give my self a dollar for everytime
or tear that fell from this eye this week i think i would
be ovver like a billion dollars richer
i duno i think im getting my . but still i duno
i justr dont get it.... i just
wanna be held

and for the stupid bitches
they get stiches
i am so sick of shady ass fucks

today was tight kinda
drama at softball
coach zanati started
crying and then she called practice off
so me katie jess and amandurt all went tanning
even tho i was the only one who tanned?
then we went otu toeat i left a note on ross's car:)
and i left