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Im so upset right now. I feel like life is so unfair. I mean I know it is unfair. But I never really realized how unfair it actually is until recently. I just have so many questions and no answers for anything. I try not to worry and put all my trust in God but sometimes I just don't know what I should I do. I wish I could help people and do something. LIke in Lousiana and even people I know. I'm so lucky and It just seems like Im ungrateful. I just feel so guilty for everything. I hate school. I feel guitly for hating school because theres people in other countries that would love to go to school and I can't stand it. It just seems like as soon as I pull up one of my grades one falls. Im sick of it. I mean I know in college Its going to be hard and were going to have a lot of homework but as far as I know Ill be taking at most 4 classes a semester. I have 6 right now and they are all hard except one. I feel like such a failure. I mean I totally blew 9th grade. And my GPA sux because of that, and my grades have just been average for the most part throughout high school. I know I can do better though. Thats what bothers me. All this time in high school I have half way tried just get through it but now I actually want to amount to something in life and its going to be more of a challenge for me because my grades! Oh well. Maybe its good thing it will be a challenge. Maybe Ill learn some valuble life lesson. I love Wayne so much I don't know what I'd do without him. I just don't understand why he gets so mad at me. I mean I know I don't deserve it but the way he talks to me sometimes makes me feel like I do. Hes so good to me but I just don't understand how you yell so much at someone you love. I mean I know everyone gets mad but I don't do anything! lol. I know he doesn't mean it but its so hard on me. He can't talk to me. Thats what makes me feel like crap. I mean if I was a good girlfriend he should be able to talk to me about stuff. I don't understand why he can't. Of course I'm not going to understand his problems but at least I can listen. Thats something I always want. Just someone to listen. But I don't know. I guess he has his reasons for not talking to me. I just wish he would. Hes doing so good in school. Im so proud of him! Some kid dropped all this money out of his wallet it was like 30 40 dollars! He didn't even notice!! I was like running through the hall way trying to get him. I caught him though...thank God. THat was probably his Gas money! Omg peopel are so dumb about gas. I had to wait in a line at the Gas station Wednesday night! All these people are hoarding it. Of couse were gonna run out of gas if all these idiots keep taking so much and freak out about the prices. No crap the prices are gonna rise Its called supply and demand! It sux but theres worse things in this world. People should be donating to the hurricane victoms. If I could I would be there but of course I can't be. I think its the worst for the elderly and the babies. Its so sad. You can't even get in contact with family. All the soldiers from New Orleans and everyelse probably don't even know if their families are alive. Its so sad. I just don't understand. This weekend will be fun. Or should be. I hate work along with school. At school everyone smokes...on school property and no one cares as long as they have their shirts tucked in. So I guess when I get sick of second hand smoke in a few years Ill know who to sue. I hate JEnkins. THey need to get their big ugly heads out of their bootays and look around at how spoiled, snobby,and crack headed everyone is and then do something! Geez. I already talked to someone from the school board!! And work is gay cuz I work with a bunch of women so I what do you expect. I hate girls. I know I am one but omg they are so catty and dumb. Women except for me, should never be in charge of anything! UGH! Well toodle loo. Keep Lousiana and the Gulf in your prayers and pray for me and Mostly Wayne.