why? WHY!!?!?!?
Well irst of all lets start off by syaing, that I put on a front for alot of things...I put on a front as a security shield,or lanket, its my way of hiding how I feel, or what Im feeling or who Iam to certain peoples.....and recently Ive noticed ive had one up for awhile...and Im kinda tired of it...I know I shouldnt have one up, and I know I should beupset, but Iam...I try not to be...I dont want the other person to see that Im hurt, and vulnerable...Hence the front. I know I should be extremely angry, and not even talking, but I do anywayz...and yes I know it will be hard on me, and extremely emotional, espically as time progresses, but I will figure it out, and do my best! Thats all i can do, I cant do anymore, then what my body can handle...Imbeing supportive and there for the person, in any way I can be..or in the ways I know that i can be...im here to talk, to listen and help solve problems...Im here to give my input and everything...I dont know if the person knows that this is how its going? and how im feeling....I hate this...I wish things could magically change...I wish things never happened, I wish I wish I wish!..but thats all it is...is wishes, nothing more, nothing less, nothing will come of them...nothing at all...so why am I wasting my time? That, I dont know for a fact...I think im just to damn nice for my own good sometimes....urgh
BYE!
BYE!