May 26, 2006 21:42
I don't know why but when josh watches porn and jacks off it really upsets me. If I'm involved with it it's okay but when he does this and i walk in on him it upsets me. It feels like he gets aroused more while watching other chicks than he is with me. He watches porn and jacks off more than we have sex now. It's really hurtful. It feels like he's cheating on me when this happens. Or at least that's how it feels when I'm not involved. I know that excessive porn use is a sign that we don't love each other any more. I don't know how long its been since we've made love instead of just had a quick fuck. He doesn't love me anymore and he's not attracted to me anymore and I know it. It hurts. I just wish he'd say it to my face. Is it wrong for me to be this upset?
kat