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Beauty, for a woman, is a double edged sword. It is either that you are beautiful or that you are not. Being beautiful entails a lot of attention from the opposite sex. This attention can be both positive and negative. Positively, you are constantly validated on this point and valued. You are life's work of art. On the negative side, you are held to a certain standard which is difficult to maintain. The not beautiful category, or in more frank terms: ugly, can expect nothing. There is no validation. There is not even the slightest recognition. And that's what sucks the most. Because for once in your goddamn life, you want to be told by someone, anyone, they think you're beautiful. And it stings even more, when the one person who is supposed to love you, doesn't find you physically attractive. They are with you for all the right reasons, they love you for who you are...on the inside. In truth, I know that should make me happy, but it doesn't. It just makes me feel even uglier.