what in the motherfuck
so hey again livejournal for the first time in how long. i have not seen you in awhile. so i'm on my girlfriends laptop and i see a link for this website and what the fuck my account still works. i'll be damned.
so life is alot different than it used to be, i've experienced alot more and actually have a girl that truly means the entire world to me, and it's alot different when you actually live with them, might i add. uhhhhhh my family thinks i'm some hardcore junkie and whatever. i thought they were a little bit smarter than that but if they believe that i don't even really care to be around them. fuck it i say. it's cool because i'm sure somehow they'll read this and a whole shitstorm will get started but that's probably too immature even for livejournal.
i've not been in the best mood lately because well, family shit said above, other shit, my medicine sucks balls too. i'm going to go to the doctor and just try to get on something that will make me feel better i don't really care what it is anymore. i'm not much of a pill popper (anymore) but i've taken my fair share of uh,, probably everything the pharmaceutical companies can make so i'm sure whatever i get can't be that bad. i mean it's better than being constantly pissed off and feeling like nothing, chemical, herbal, personal, can fix it. but whatever that's probably just me typing out of drunkeness. by the way don't ever get addicted to anything it really sucks. i mean i battle my demons with alot of shit and even still have problems controlling myself sometimes. i guess living in the hood for awhile kind of helped that. sleeping with a pistol grip shotgun under your bed and 4 more different ones in the closet can scare the shit out of you. but fuck it!!! ! i finally got out of that shithole. it's pretty sad when you can smoke one on your front porch with your best friend, hear gunshots and even your black neighbor comes over and is like "dude what the fuck. crazy ass motherfuckers." but shit, you get used to shit and then you move over behind the ATT store on caraway. big difference between that and living a block away from the crack den motel on gee street. HUGE.
uuuuuhhh i don't really talk to anyone anymore, i don't do alot of the things i used to like play in bands and shit. i mean don't get me wrong i'm still with ASU bands and shit but that sucks a big dick, especially when your advisor drops your scholarship because you have a hard time with mallets. fuck that dude though. fuck ASU period if you go to a different school you're lucky as hell. let me tell you.
i'm still with outback and it still sucks. i run makeup and shit which mean i fuck with hot ass plates all night and constantly burn the shit out of myself on 700 degree heat lamps. but i guess i can't really complain at nearly ten dollars an hour. i mean i work my ass off, don't get me wrong, but i guess it could be worse. i mean i COULD be working for heritage, and that sucked major ballsack.
back to life now. have a girlfriend, been together for almost six months, you know how crazy that is considering my previous "love life" if you would even call it that. i mean i thought i was like the king of fucking up and repelling girls but holy SHIT she's actually what i think of to be the most beautiful girl i've ever seen, and that's something to me. i mean of course it's not the most important thing, the chick is a fucking badass, really nice, and not to mention she's from the Rock so she keeps it real as fuck and i like that. basically i really do love the girl. this is alot different from anything i've ever experienced and i really like it. so there is my little "hooray for curtis" section.
so in a nutshell life is hard as fuck but at least i have buddy and natalie to help get me through it. hell i would actually say it sucks but even though i've been dealt a super shitty deck lately doesn't mean i don't know how to enjoy myself. now it's bedtime i think. goodbye world.
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so life is alot different than it used to be, i've experienced alot more and actually have a girl that truly means the entire world to me, and it's alot different when you actually live with them, might i add. uhhhhhh my family thinks i'm some hardcore junkie and whatever. i thought they were a little bit smarter than that but if they believe that i don't even really care to be around them. fuck it i say. it's cool because i'm sure somehow they'll read this and a whole shitstorm will get started but that's probably too immature even for livejournal.
i've not been in the best mood lately because well, family shit said above, other shit, my medicine sucks balls too. i'm going to go to the doctor and just try to get on something that will make me feel better i don't really care what it is anymore. i'm not much of a pill popper (anymore) but i've taken my fair share of uh,, probably everything the pharmaceutical companies can make so i'm sure whatever i get can't be that bad. i mean it's better than being constantly pissed off and feeling like nothing, chemical, herbal, personal, can fix it. but whatever that's probably just me typing out of drunkeness. by the way don't ever get addicted to anything it really sucks. i mean i battle my demons with alot of shit and even still have problems controlling myself sometimes. i guess living in the hood for awhile kind of helped that. sleeping with a pistol grip shotgun under your bed and 4 more different ones in the closet can scare the shit out of you. but fuck it!!! ! i finally got out of that shithole. it's pretty sad when you can smoke one on your front porch with your best friend, hear gunshots and even your black neighbor comes over and is like "dude what the fuck. crazy ass motherfuckers." but shit, you get used to shit and then you move over behind the ATT store on caraway. big difference between that and living a block away from the crack den motel on gee street. HUGE.
uuuuuhhh i don't really talk to anyone anymore, i don't do alot of the things i used to like play in bands and shit. i mean don't get me wrong i'm still with ASU bands and shit but that sucks a big dick, especially when your advisor drops your scholarship because you have a hard time with mallets. fuck that dude though. fuck ASU period if you go to a different school you're lucky as hell. let me tell you.
i'm still with outback and it still sucks. i run makeup and shit which mean i fuck with hot ass plates all night and constantly burn the shit out of myself on 700 degree heat lamps. but i guess i can't really complain at nearly ten dollars an hour. i mean i work my ass off, don't get me wrong, but i guess it could be worse. i mean i COULD be working for heritage, and that sucked major ballsack.
back to life now. have a girlfriend, been together for almost six months, you know how crazy that is considering my previous "love life" if you would even call it that. i mean i thought i was like the king of fucking up and repelling girls but holy SHIT she's actually what i think of to be the most beautiful girl i've ever seen, and that's something to me. i mean of course it's not the most important thing, the chick is a fucking badass, really nice, and not to mention she's from the Rock so she keeps it real as fuck and i like that. basically i really do love the girl. this is alot different from anything i've ever experienced and i really like it. so there is my little "hooray for curtis" section.
so in a nutshell life is hard as fuck but at least i have buddy and natalie to help get me through it. hell i would actually say it sucks but even though i've been dealt a super shitty deck lately doesn't mean i don't know how to enjoy myself. now it's bedtime i think. goodbye world.
Curtis