the hardest thing

[ilovetheuni]

I am absolutely heartbroken. Tonight I had to say goodbye to you. I had to hug you, watch you get on the subway, hear the dingdong the doors made as they closed, and then had to watch and wave as you slowly pulled away, forcing myself to look away as I started to cry harder. I had to walk back to my dorm after I left the station, stopping into whole foods and knowing I'd never be in there with you again, hanging by the bakery samples or looking for some more nutritious fruit downstairs. I can't believe that you're gone, that these two years, this semester, even these past few weeks, have flown by faster than I ever could've imagined. Now you're in your empty apartment, all of your boxes on their way to sunny California, and you're getting some sleep before you head to JFK and hop onto a plane back home, on the other side of the country. I know I'll see you soon, but it will never be the same. We will never be here, together, again. You have changed my life more than I ever could've imagined on that first day I met you, and I am forever grateful. Hopefully the tears will end soon, even though the pain of your leaving will surely take some time to wear off. I will miss you, I love you dearly, and I wish you all the best Miss AMZ.

Love,
Micki