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This has gotten entirely out of hand. Please SOMEONE tell me that everything's gonna be ok. Please anyone. Wait, nvm, don't lie to me. Gosh I could use a hug and a handgun. My life has gone to Hell in a handbasket and I would do anything to join it. I hate hurting people, but this is my livejournal, and I'm not gonna write things in it to make people happy. I write things that make sense, what I'm feeling, how I think. Not what anyone else thinks I should feel or think.
I apologize to anyone I've offended and such, but really, this journal is a window to what I'm feeling, if I closed that I would be a million times more miserable than I already am.
My hands are shaking, my head is pounding, and I just want to go back in time about half a year and make things right. I'm such a screw-up.
In case anyone was wondering, to have the person you love most in the world, more than any other, to have that person hate you, hate everything you've ever been, that hurts more than the deepest cut, the blackest bruise.
And then to be betrayed by someone you thought was one of your best friends doesn't feel particularly good either. Well. maybe not betrayed. I'm just kind of hurt and confused at the moment. Everything's going wrong. Everything. I hope I fall off a cliff and die. If you know of a particularly good cliff that I could accidently fall off of, give me a call.
I apologize to anyone I've offended and such, but really, this journal is a window to what I'm feeling, if I closed that I would be a million times more miserable than I already am.
My hands are shaking, my head is pounding, and I just want to go back in time about half a year and make things right. I'm such a screw-up.
In case anyone was wondering, to have the person you love most in the world, more than any other, to have that person hate you, hate everything you've ever been, that hurts more than the deepest cut, the blackest bruise.
And then to be betrayed by someone you thought was one of your best friends doesn't feel particularly good either. Well. maybe not betrayed. I'm just kind of hurt and confused at the moment. Everything's going wrong. Everything. I hope I fall off a cliff and die. If you know of a particularly good cliff that I could accidently fall off of, give me a call.