feel like poo :(
I can't believe it. Saturday, I purposed in my head to make myself not like Sam. Just so that I wouldn't end up getting hurt and such and crap. So I got over him. Wasn't that hard. pretty glad I stopped myself at the beginning before I fell completely in love. Ok. And as soon as I did that, I started liking Zach again. And I was like crap. Dang stupid emotions can kiss my bum. And then I find out that him and Jessica Streufert are going out. WHAT THE FRIGGIN' CRAP???? That's realllllllly not good for my self-esteem. What friggin' person in their right friggin' mind would prefer HER over me. Ok. That sounds really biggotted, but this is my journal so kiss my bum. That's just what's been going through my mind. It makes me feel reallllly bad. Like a million times worse than I've felt in a while. What is she doing right that i'm doing oh-so-very wrong. I don't even care any more. I just want someone, ANYONE to care about me like Zach used to. Hickey pointed out that I crave attention from guys, and it's so true. I'm not sure it's entirely healthy, but I love to be needed and need to be loved. So... if anyone knows anyone that's remotely interested, please tell me before I go completely insane!!!
Jeez, I can't believe I just wrote that. I've never begged for a boyfriend before. WHAT THE CRAP IS WRONG WITH ME???? Darn PMS... girlness can kiss my bum. I hate being a girl. I think I would have a better chance of getting a boyfriend if I were a gay guy.
Jeez, I can't believe I just wrote that. I've never begged for a boyfriend before. WHAT THE CRAP IS WRONG WITH ME???? Darn PMS... girlness can kiss my bum. I hate being a girl. I think I would have a better chance of getting a boyfriend if I were a gay guy.