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so frustrated... i have all this energy and i feel like going running but i cant.. i didnt go to school today cus my knee hurt so fucking bad... all i want to do is live like a fuckin normal person but i cant and then everyones all like why arent u happy and its not like i dont want to be thats all i want... getting my parents to do anything is so hard they flip if i dont do somthin they ask RIGHT NOW but when its bout me gettin some help for somthin thats not my falt then its not important.. if i push it im insensitive and i need to respect their busy schedules.. i kno dad thinks im faking so i dont haf to go to school.. it makes me want to hit him why the fuck wud i want to fake somthin that makes me wear this hideos brace and makes me differnt then other pple and schools ok some of the time thats where most of my frends area nyways.... all my life ive had ppl give me funny looks either cus of the brace or cus one minute ill be walkin and laffin wit them and the other minute ill b on the floor in pain.. it drives my mom crazy that i always haf headfones on.. she doesnt get that if i haf music on to listen to im not listening to my own deppresing thots and she dosnt get that i dont WANT to listen to my dads irrating comments to me and that im not five years old and that being talked to like im that pisses me off.. im sick of all this and i dont want to think about it anymore i need some way to get out of myself