Fic: Beautifully Wrong (6D/12)
Media: Fic
Title: Beautifully Wrong
Author: Luca
Rating: NC-17 (overall and to be safe - most of it stays in PG-13 territory)
Characters: ftm!Blaine, Kurt, Blaine's parents, Cooper, Sebastian, Trent, various ND members, non-major OCs.
Spoilers: Up to 3.22 to be safe. Canon up to 3.05 and largely canon compliant beyond that (with some notable exceptions ( Read more... )
Title: Beautifully Wrong
Author: Luca
Rating: NC-17 (overall and to be safe - most of it stays in PG-13 territory)
Characters: ftm!Blaine, Kurt, Blaine's parents, Cooper, Sebastian, Trent, various ND members, non-major OCs.
Spoilers: Up to 3.22 to be safe. Canon up to 3.05 and largely canon compliant beyond that (with some notable exceptions ( Read more... )
I found it very fascinating reading this fic; the porn is hot but I love the way you have been handling the transgender issues with such sensitivity. I must admit I was one of those people who was very nervous when I first started reading. I've read fics dealing with transgender issues in this fandom before, and to be blunt some of them were done so badly they were bordering on offensive. However, none of them has handled the issues involved in no where near such a deft manner as you have. Thank-you!
I have several transgender friends and I volunteer in LGBT activism (I'm working on making it my career) so I know something of the issues involved and I have lots of people I can talk to about it. I've only spoken in depth about this with two of them about the issue of identities and how to refer to people in conversation when you are speaking about them before they transitioned, but they both said to me they would prefer people to refer past events with them in as their "old" identify. When I first knew S he was known as E, and when S is talking about events pre-transition he refers to E and he has asked his friends to do this as well. Both of the people transitioned well into adulthood (one late twenties, the other early thirties), so I suspect this may make a difference?
What I am trying to say I think is I find Blaine's thoughts on this topic fascinating, and it's interesting to hear another point of view on the topic.
(This is obviously a deeply person topic, and one where there is no right or wrong answer!)
Sorry for the slightly ramble-ly comment; I hope it makes sense.
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It's interesting to me that the friends you mention are the exact opposite of Blaine on that particular topic. Most people I know about or have spoken to about it have been like myself and Blaine, and find it upsetting when someone casually refers to their "old self" with the excuse that "well, you were *** then!". Obviously there is no right or wrong answer, just like there's no one way to be trans (I do hope it's clear that I'm writing one person's story - and not my own either - not speaking for all ftms). I think it might have a lot to do with how a person views and feels about their transition, and yes, age might be a factor as well.
For me personally there are two reasons why I'd rather just be Luca all the time. First, I'm still quite early in my transition (less than a year in) where getting people to use the right name and pronouns is still something of a struggle and the times when they get it wrong are not fun. I'm still sort of "getting settled" in my male identity if that makes sense. Adding instances where it's "okay" for people to use my old name and pronouns would not help with that.
Secondly, I feel like dividing my identity into a before and after implies that I'm somehow a different person now than I was a year ago. I mean, I suppose I am in some sense because people grow and change all the time, but Luca is still fundamentally the same person that U was, so I see now reason to think of them as separate.
(Sorry, that turned out somewhat longer than I'd intended. Hope it at least makes sense :p )
Thank you again for commenting! I love the long thoughtful ones. :)
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I am the same as Luca and Blaine.
I have the same reasons as Luca for wanting this, but they're a bit different for me.
Everyday, I have to fight just to feel valid. For most people, it's an all-or-nothing deal (like Blaine's dad, a bit) so I'm hard to understand. I go by male pronouns and a male name. "Ana" (the only variation of my birth name that ISN'T horribly triggering) is a name that, while I still like the actual name, represents a lot more than my parents picking a name I didn't like. It's representing this entire person I'm not. It's also often who I feel people want me to be. Some days are easier than others, and I just gently correct people. Other days, to be blunt, I wake up hating my tits, and if you call me Ana, I will probably want to throw a chair at your head. Or go crawl in a corner and curl up. I work so hard to be concidered "trans enough". I NEED my few boundaries acknowledged.
I've actually been out a long time. I've physically transitioned for less than a year, however, and started truly working to tell everyone. My whole life I remember being T, as I was called even back then. And why my birth name starts with it, so does Teagen, my chosen one. So people never used the other name really, and if they do now, they are not also talking as if I didn't exist then, they're also insisting on creating someone completely new. No one acknowledged Ana, just T. So having it any different now? You HAVE to be going out of your way. It's the same thing as I'm only ever saying I'm on the Masculine Spectrum, instead of FtM. Physically, sure. Hormones are meant to transitions someone sex, and Testosterone does it from female to male. But me? I was never REALLY female, so why say that's what I'm leaving?
I meet people like us more, with the whole one-name, one-pronoun thing.
Now, Luca. I LOVE your story, and I want to thank you so, SO much for putting it here. I was hit with a whole new level of dysphoria Tuesday, and this story and it's reminding me that I'm not all alone kept me going to today (Sunday morning). I love knowing you're out there.
Thank you,
Teagen
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