It needs to be over...
either I've just become really bad at reading people... or people are getting better and better and hiding themselves... and I DON'T LIKE IT... it suck... because people can read me with no problem... well... not many people but there are a few... (that care)...
Oh... how I'm not looking forward to Mother's day... knowing that the average 16 year old girl will be giving her mother cheesy halmark cards and a small ift to show her how much she says she cares about her... while I'm home... in my room... wishing that only my mother was still here... with me... it isn't fair... really... its not... if it was me... I would have been fine... wouldn't even have seen the hospital... not even close... but no... it had to be here... of all people... it happened to me... not that I'd wish losing someones mother on anyone... but... me... it wasn't like I didn't have enough to worrie about... even if it was all in my head... and the same damn things everyother teenager has to think about/do and what not... no... I had to worrie about my stupid father... and all his shit... and now I still get it... only multiply that times like a billion... I swear, no word out of his mouth is ever a positive one toward me... its always how I did this worng... or that... or you should have... or... why didn't you... or... it would be better, if only you'd... geeze... for once... I'd just like it to be good... even ok would be fine... even a fine would be ok... *sigh*... I know we all have the same problems... and yeah sure... thats fine... but... normally... well... most people... have the other parent to go to for back-up... ya know... my mom ALWAYS had my back... even when I didn't!!! yeah... my dad has my back... he's got my back with a knife through it...
Well... for better news... The Bitch went in for suregry today... back surgery... :-D!!! I had a dream... well... more of... I was planning the BEST day of my life... last night... I was going to find the hospital and everything where she was at and when they were like in her back... I was going to mess it up... so she'd be like paralized... or... maybe(hopfully die)(j/k) I'm not that mean... but it'd be a blessing...
anywho... I need to get an apartment... just anywhere from here... I want to cut just my room... and maybe Corey's (if I was feeling nice the day I did it) out of the house... and just move away... HEY... maybe Aunt Debbie would let me live with her in Georiga... even though I hate Georiga... its better than here... and for Gosh sakes... if effing snows in OHIO... WHEN ITS ONLY A WEEK UNTIL MAY!!!!!! GEEEEZE!!!!
Ok... I'm done... the only reason I posted in here today... was because not many people know this exists... :-D!!
Oh... how I'm not looking forward to Mother's day... knowing that the average 16 year old girl will be giving her mother cheesy halmark cards and a small ift to show her how much she says she cares about her... while I'm home... in my room... wishing that only my mother was still here... with me... it isn't fair... really... its not... if it was me... I would have been fine... wouldn't even have seen the hospital... not even close... but no... it had to be here... of all people... it happened to me... not that I'd wish losing someones mother on anyone... but... me... it wasn't like I didn't have enough to worrie about... even if it was all in my head... and the same damn things everyother teenager has to think about/do and what not... no... I had to worrie about my stupid father... and all his shit... and now I still get it... only multiply that times like a billion... I swear, no word out of his mouth is ever a positive one toward me... its always how I did this worng... or that... or you should have... or... why didn't you... or... it would be better, if only you'd... geeze... for once... I'd just like it to be good... even ok would be fine... even a fine would be ok... *sigh*... I know we all have the same problems... and yeah sure... thats fine... but... normally... well... most people... have the other parent to go to for back-up... ya know... my mom ALWAYS had my back... even when I didn't!!! yeah... my dad has my back... he's got my back with a knife through it...
Well... for better news... The Bitch went in for suregry today... back surgery... :-D!!! I had a dream... well... more of... I was planning the BEST day of my life... last night... I was going to find the hospital and everything where she was at and when they were like in her back... I was going to mess it up... so she'd be like paralized... or... maybe(hopfully die)(j/k) I'm not that mean... but it'd be a blessing...
anywho... I need to get an apartment... just anywhere from here... I want to cut just my room... and maybe Corey's (if I was feeling nice the day I did it) out of the house... and just move away... HEY... maybe Aunt Debbie would let me live with her in Georiga... even though I hate Georiga... its better than here... and for Gosh sakes... if effing snows in OHIO... WHEN ITS ONLY A WEEK UNTIL MAY!!!!!! GEEEEZE!!!!
Ok... I'm done... the only reason I posted in here today... was because not many people know this exists... :-D!!