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I hate this, I hate how I try to vent to someone about something, and when I tell them a detail, all they say is...That's bad.....No Shit you dont' think I don't fucking know. I hate how you didn't ever try to listen to me, it made me think about our friendship, and doing that and realizing i'm closer to other people more then you, they help me at times like these, you're my number one best friend and you weren't even really there to help me. GOD this kills me. Thinking about this and typing it all, it hurts. I wish my parents weren't home then I can do the full out cry. I hate when you think you have a best friend and then realize there are other people that are more qualified for that position, they're there when i need them, they're not busy with a boyfriend or something. If I change a lot from something tell me, yell at me, slap me in the face, Do something to get my attention. I don't want to some day to busy with everything else and not pay attention to a friend in need. I've probably already done that and I hate myself for that. For those of you that would be there for me, I love you, you have a piece of my heart that's how much I love you. And losing you as a friend would kill me. I don't remember the last time i've cried this much and made my eyes all swollen and poofy.