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i'm not sure what has happened to me but i need to stop being such a bad person.
i'm pushing everyone away from me, yet all i want is someone to be close to.
it's like i keep looking for excuses to be miserable.
and i'm way over sensitive. i go crazy over the tiniest things that don't even matter.
i've convinced myself that people let me down all the time when really i'm the only one that lets me down.
i can't keep blaming everything on other people.
if something doesn't go my way i freak out.
i'm so frustrated with myself right now.
if i know all of these things, why do i feel like i can't change them?
i'm pushing everyone away from me, yet all i want is someone to be close to.
it's like i keep looking for excuses to be miserable.
and i'm way over sensitive. i go crazy over the tiniest things that don't even matter.
i've convinced myself that people let me down all the time when really i'm the only one that lets me down.
i can't keep blaming everything on other people.
if something doesn't go my way i freak out.
i'm so frustrated with myself right now.
if i know all of these things, why do i feel like i can't change them?