interesting to see what you are. and what i could have been.

[ilovenoce]

i got really depressed yesterday seeing what people that i used to hang around with are up to these days. surprise, surprise, its the same fucking thing. its weird to think that without getting a job at ecv, going to esf, or whatever moment in my life inspired me to grow up, i might not ever have gotten out of the rut i was in. still chasing

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[theirishfamine]

im sure that wasnt directed at me but in case i was part of it ...for the record..im not where i was.....no offense to anyone i think i may have done the most growing up of all of us...granted im older but still.......I am glad youre not in the same place because it wasnt good for you I know that but i want you to know im worried about you....we need to go out for coffee soon just you and me and talk and no im not gonna lecture im just worried not as a nag as a friend. And you probably know what this is regarding if not ill tell you then....if we meet up for coffee (youre treat:)) im gonna say what i gotta say and never mention it again then we can have a normal little gem experience......p.s. sorry we didnt invite u to lunch but we didnt know where we were going for lunch until 5, we drove around and killed my gas tank instead).............

[ilovenoce]

its good to see that someone gives a fuck without me having to beg someone to talk to. its cool, i realized after giving you guys the finger that it was vagina day and you two would probably like to be alone and the like. lil gem sounds good. just gimme a call.

[joebobsdrunk]

hi. its nice to see you didn't fall off the face of the earth like i thought you did. i dont believe ive talked to you since the week before this semester started. i do care what is going on in your life by the way. i dont like finding out through the grape vine that someone who i still view as my best friend has dropped out of school and gotten a full time job. and i didnt know what to think when i asked if we could get together and talk and you said okay call me tomorrow and then i called you the next day and you didnt answer my phone calls, and then 10 minutes later eric called and you answered his, and never returned mine. i dont know what to think when my friend keep important details of their lives away form me- so i didnt think i let the ball be in your court. and as for the group of us still being dramatic and hanging on silly things that should just be forgotten, i think we have. there isnt that much left to be dramatic about, there isnt the "whos dateing who and oh my god did you heard.." kind of bullshit. AND i would like

[ilovenoce]

its pointless to apologize. itd just be something hovering over my head making me watch my step every time im around you. im tired of it.

[joebobsdrunk]

Well I'm glad you never have to be around me again then. I'm sorry to hear that our friendship was a waste our your time. Have a nice life and try to to fuck it up to much, you actually have to much potencial to sit around and waste away