why me again
Once again i cant deal with my probelms and i just run away from them, but this time i dont think im running im just taking a few steps back from reality, i think i really fuck things up all the time i kick myself in the ass.im tired of trying to make everyone else happy when im not even happy myself ,i do to many things for to many people and when i need something i get nothing in return i have no where to turn neither, makes me think alot but i dont know what i should really belive my head is saying anymore cause im just a basket case and i wish i had something to make me happy but i havent been happy in a real long time actually i cant remember the last time i was happy ,really sucks . sothats why im going to take this time and put it towards myself and see if im really worth the effort and try and make myself worth the effort and see what kinda of person actually comes out of me. cause im really frustrated with myself these days i cant make people understand me i try so hard and i just confuse myself sometimes and then i wounder why people dont understand me. so now im just going to do things on my own see if i really need anyone else cause i depend on everyone for everything. i always need somones opinion on something. blah i dont even know what im talking about anymore nothing but *pointless*